To be honest, I am feeling scared out of my mind about all of the changes that have been happening in my life as of late. As I blogged before, graduation came first. Well, the next abrupt change was not one that I had planned or even thought about. As most of you know, I worked at a facility with troubled teen girls, and had been there for just under on year. I honestly cannot express how much those girls meant and still mean to me! Well, about three weeks ago, it finally hit me how much that job was taking a toll on my physical, emotional, and psychological well being. I was literally turning into a different person; a person I didn't like, and a person my husband was definitely struggling with. So, with a lot of hard thoughts, prayers, and deliberation... I decided to put in my two weeks notice and leave all of these girls I cared about so much. I fought with myself consistently for the two weeks and went back and forth on the decision (probably driving my boss crazy), but when my final day came it was definitely bitter sweet. I worked a double that day and even though all of the girls struggled (as well as myself) when I told them that would be my last day, I really did feel right about the decision I had made. That night, I left the girls with a song that I wrote awhile ago for a music therapy session. It may seem slightly cheesy, but it seemed to mean a lot to them and it definitely meant A LOT to me! Here are the lyrics...
EMBRACE THE CHANGE
Change, it's a word I know well and as far as I can tell you do too.
Change, when you just got back on your feet and your thinking that the suns coming out.
Trials tend to come around right when we think that we have just found happiness.
So let me introduce to you a concept that I wish I knew better.
Smile through the change!
And dance even though the rain is pouring down.
Embrace what you feel!
Life's lessons will teach you and make this journey surreal.
Now I know that this lesson may seem much easier said than done.
But change, through perserverance and time can become a verse well sung.
Though hard times tend to leave us down. We lose our path and hold on ground, remember...
The future can't be set in stone, sometimes what's best is the unknown
And so....
Smile through the change!
And dance even though, the rain is pouring down!
Embrace what you feel!
Life's lessons will teach us and make this journey surreal!
Anyway, I think that sharing this song with the girls and seeing them have to deal with change and struggle on a day-to-day basis really taught me how to embrace the changes and challenges in my life as well. Ultimately, the decision to leave my job was hard, but I know that it was a necessary change for both me and the girls I worked with.
Till next time...
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